“Francois Rabelais. He was a poet. And his last words were ‘I go to seek a Great Perhaps.’ That’s why I’m going. So I don’t have to wait until I die to start seeking a Great Perhaps.”
– John Green
We are never alone. We are never the only ones. We have universal feelings and desires, so universal that we find our deepest selves in between book pages, art, and song lyrics.
Yet as “ordinary” as we may appear, we are still one of a kind, with stories that will never occur the exact same way again. As much as history may repeat itself, we are a onetime occurrence in this vast universe.
We are never alone, yet for moments we feel like we are stranded in a deserted island of our incomprehensible stories, sorrows, and thoughts. There are moments when no matter how much we try to explain ourselves, everything slowly turns into a turmoil of confusion and angst.
We feel like we are seeking a “great perhaps” that nobody understands. And that confusion turns into worry, and the worry turns into anxiety and fear and for a minute we forget how to dream. We become oblivious to the sun that lights our path every single morning, to the beauty around us, to the light coming from all the sources. We forget about the power that is confined within ourselves and we cripple under the weight, the critiques, the accusations. We feel chained to the words that are spoken about us, to follow our family’s path, to listen to what the world has to say, but no matter how strong these might be, we are stronger than them.
Our life does not have to be like everybody else’s. What we dream of, what journey we decide to embark on, who we choose to follow, is up to us. We have to realize that it does not matter how much we try to avoid failure and criticism, people are always going to have something to say, and at the end of the day, if you messed up on your own, because of your decisions, then it is worth it. Anxiety, fear, anger, those are inevitable and the only thing we can control is what we do about them.
Sometimes others will support you and fight battles with you, and other times you will stand alone, and it will be daunting, lonely, and beautiful. We may feel like we are on our own, but the world is waiting for us to make our only occurrence remarkable. Be remarkable, seek your perhaps before it is a little too late, and know that somewhere out there, an aspiring beam of light, is waiting to hear about your stories and remind you that although every single person is different, we never have to face the world alone.